Bored with the location of her present journal, our heroine decides to find a new place to hide on the net. Is it really hiding when you are publishing publicly for all to read?
I didn't think so either.
At the moment I am sitting at the computer desk, having finished fiddling with Movable Type for the night. I set up version 2.51 for this site because I like all the bells and whistles that come with it. I especially like the search function. This was something that I missed a great deal when I switched from Greymatter to MT. I'm happy I made the MT switch. Mena and Ben seem to be rocking right along with the upgrades to this system. Overall, since I started writing regularly online and using content management systems, I've found that Movable Type is by far the best I've used. This is no slight against the other two systems I've used; they are both good in their own right. There is something about Movable Type though that keeps me on my toes waiting for upgrades just so I can see what they are going to add next.
I should be packing and preparing to move into my new house, but after a long week (only three days but boy were they rough) at work, I just need to chill out tonight and catch up on all the housework during my four day weekend. Should four day weekend be hyphenated? I'll figure that out later.
Is it funny that I called this site a journal? I guess I was a little confused on the other site as to just what kind of focus I wanted it to have. In my most verbose moments my site can be a journal, a blog or a weird mix of both. I like to link things and I like to write about what's going on in my life and I like to write about what I am reading and things of that nature. I guess it's a hodgepodge, but with the focus being on me mainly I suppose it's a journal. In any case, in my pen and paper journals (or even the ones that I type into Word on my computer) I tend to write about any and everything, not just personal stuff. I guess that would make the site more like a notebook thing. Whatever it is, it's mine and I will do with it what I like thank you very much. If I decide I am just going to post random nothingness like this because I have nothing else to write I can because it's mine.
My relationship with the Internet has changed over the past few weeks. Whereas I used to spend hours upon hours surfing, reading and posting, lately I can barely find time to update my own site. I am going to get better at that because above all us, I wanted to have a record somewhere of where I've been, what I've done, what I've seen and what I was feeling when it all went down.
Life happens so fast but I don't want to lose a moment of it. A new place, a new attitude. I will try to capture as much of it as I can for posterity. I spent so much time writing to entertain other people. This time I want to write for me.
My life will make a damn good book some day.
I made the decision today to return to school. This is something I have debated on for a long time. I’ve made some premature efforts to return, but I think during those times my heart was not in the right place. All the attempts I’ve made before have been out of some sense of pleasing someone else, be it my parents, my siblings, my boyfriend or boss. I never did it for me. This time feels different because it’s all about me.
I was sitting at work thinking about how much I hate listening to grown ass men beg me to leave their cell phone on for a few more days so they can dig up the money to pay it and it dawned on me that this isn’t the field of work I am really interested in. I realized how trying to educate people on the importance of paying on time is not getting me any closer to my goal of writing for professional publication. I thought about how my present schedule at work is totally preventing me from being able to take the creative writing class I want to take at the community college.
I recognized the fact that my job is not a challenge for me. While the money is good and I enjoy most of the people I work with, to me this is just a stop along the highway of life and I don’t plan to be there for the rest of my life. I had to ask myself though, what am I doing to prevent myself from having to take another job like this again? I imagine myself as a writer moonlighting as a call center representative, but what am I doing to further that writing career? Furthermore, how is working this job benefiting me in my endeavors to write professionally?
I think the HR rep must have been reading my mind or something because as I was having all these thoughts I checked my company email and found that he had sent one out encouraging employees to take advantage of the tuition reimbursement program. The company pays $5,250 per year in tuition, books and fees for classes that will help you further your education. I felt one of those little light bulbs go off over my head. The email stated that some catalogs from both the community college and the state university had been placed in the break room. We were encouraged to take a look at them and see if there were any programs of interest to us.
As I thumbed through the community college spring class schedule, I found that they have a program at the campus not far from my home which enables working adults to complete 15 semester units of fully accredited classes in one semester attending classes 2 hours a night, 4 nights a week. The classes are served up in four week modules and you complete one class every four weeks. Your focus is on one subject at a time. This is perfect for me. I got all excited just reading about it.
I went to my boss and told her that I was interested in having my schedule changed to accommodate my schooling. She and I have been down this road together before, so she wasn’t surprised to hear me bring it up again. Over the summer I had expressed an interest in taking a creative writing class during the fall. At that time I was only looking for one night a week and she had promised me that my schedule would be changed but then sold me a dream. My schedule never got changed to the one I wanted; instead I was stuck on one that keeps me at work until 6pm. I reminded her of all this as I made my request for the schedule change. She told me to send it to her in the form of an email and she would forward it to the appropriate people to make sure something was done. We’ll see. I’m going to stay on her about it. I let her know that my date to register is coming up next week. I’m willing to take it over her head if necessary.
I already have some college credits, but I know that there are some courses that I will be repeating. I’m not repeating them for a grade but rather for the refresher for my brain. It’s been ages since I took freshman composition ( you can probably tell by all the horrible grammar mistakes I make when writing). I want to get my juices going again.
I’m incredibly excited by the prospect of returning to school. I will do what it takes to make sure I get there and get done this time.
This time, it’s all about me.