procrastination

Do I create my own opportunities for procrastination? I do. I find ways of avoiding tasks that I’m either not disciplined enough to complete or generally unexcited about completing. I realize this behavior in myself and have not done anything to correct it. Yes, I’ve even procrastinated on self-help.

Sometimes when I’m sitting down trying to focus on writing, I’ll become distracted by the act of looking something up that I’m referencing or something on the television which may lead to a long string of tangential distractions and ultimately I never return to the task or I end up losing interest in whatever it was I was going to write about in the first place. Tons of writing of ideas don't come to fruition because I don't follow through. This procrastinating tactic is called lack of discipline.

I admit my laziness too. I wear it like a badge of honor. When someone asks me why I have tons of clothes all over my room I tell them it’s because I’m too lazy to gather up the ones that should go to Goodwill or a friend or one of my cousins. When someone questions why I paid to get my hair done like this just to pull it back in a ponytail I let them know it’s because styling it up the way it’s supposed to be worn is too much work for a pussycat like me who stays up all night and can’t be bothered with something so trivial as hair when there’s extra sleep I could be getting in the morning. This procrastination tactic is called laziness.

I’m know procrastination had led to me missing some keen opportunities. I acknowledge these missed chances to divert off the boring, working drone path and brush it off by saying, “Oh well, if it were meant to be it would have happened.” I never admit that it didn’t happen because I didn’t make it happen. I procrastinate by making excuses like about things that I have to accomplish first before I work towards what I call my main goal. This is the worst kind of procrastination. It’s called fear.

I’m thinking about all of this because of a discussion that I had with Jason last night. We talked about more than just this, but I’ll get to the rest of it later. This portion of the conversation got me thinking long and hard about all the things I procrastinate on. I thought about all the things I complain about in my life and I broke them down like geometry proofs. Procrastination has led to a lot of the situations that I complain about.

I refuse to create my own opportunities for procrastination any longer.

Note: someone sent me that graphic two days after the post was originally presented but I thought it would be a cute addition to the entry anyway so I added it.