August 2002 Archives

back down memory lane
Last night I was going through folders on my hard drive and I read through all the archives for this site, from beginning to end. There was an entire year of hideous kinky history hidden in folders on my deteriorating desktop machine. Some of the old entries made me smile and some of them made me think “Jesus, did I write this crap?” It was a good experience and it made me realize just how far I’ve come both as a webmistress (cause I really am one, right?) and a writer.

I’m going to archive them all back onto the site. It’s a project that is going to take some time, but I’m willing to do it because I am proud of where I‘ve been and where I’m going and I feel like sharing. I think it’s essential to leave the history of this site intact. There were some true gems back in the day! I felt tingly all over reading them. I never realized how much haiku I had. And how much I share. I share a lot. I guess that’s just me. All of it is a part of me and I want it all to be back on the site. I think it would be cool.

Going back to Cali
I’m going to get up Friday morning and drive out to L.A. I’ll be staying at my Granny’s this time so I’m going to put in some time with her and the rest of the L.A. relations. Maybe even spend some time with the diva herself. The African Marketplace is taking place this weekend. It’s been about 8 years since I’ve had an opportunity to attend it so I plan on visiting that. A friend invited me to go on a shopping trip at Ontario Mills and although I know it’s a dangerous mission I am going to take it because I cannot resist. I have a pair of shoes that I need to exchange at Bloomingdales and we don’t have one out here. Beverly Center here I come.

I just wanna kick it. Are you down? Holler.

i'm in love with mary jane
I finally found the man. Her pimp. Yeah baby. It’s been while since I’ve blown my lungs out and me and mary were happy to see each other I think. I was happy to see her. It’s going to be a great weekend.

aside
I wanna be like Lynne when I grow up.

finally
I got my King Britt cd in the mail today. I hear I’m not the only one having problems with them to. I still love y’all, I’m not hating, but get it together.

block?
I haven’t written anything worth sharing lately. I need to get cracking. The muse has been stunted and GTAIII is not helping. Distractions ...

the hustle
Things at work are getting better. I must learn to maintain a positive attitude. I’m trying. It’s a habit that has to be built.

the reality
It’s late and I need to be in bed. Good night.

i'm posting this to show my friend anne how to use Movable Type.

i love ej. that is all. he makes me feel so good when i talk to him. i always have a grin after our chats. i always feel happy.

i heart you ej.

not that I don't love the rest of y'all. but sometimes you have to send out special shout outs.

I was one crabby bitch today. I have to admit it. The monthly visitor causes this hormonal imbalance that brings out my darker half more often than I would like over the course of five red days. I snapped at this poor guy at work and all he was trying to do was talk to me about GTAIII. Usually you can’t get me to shut up about the game. Today I was just not in the mood for anything.

Amazon fucked up an order for me. Now everyone's stuff is shipping out in parts and one person's birthday gifts didn't get to them on time even though I ordered well in advance. On top of that, when they found out they had to reship they told me it would be at no charge, but I found out I was charged anyway. I got an email today apologizing for the whole fiasco and normally it would make me feel better, but since I'm an hormonal bitch right now I can't be moved to be satisfied.

The boy called me and it sorta brightened my day. I was feeling real bad Miss Celie; I was feelin' mighty low!

Some shit at work is pissing me off a little too but I'll talk more about it later.

At least I got to see One Life to Live tonight. Talk about making a story hot. These storylines they have going are on fire.

I would say more but I’m tired and crabby. Ask me again tomorrow.

haiku
Open dialogue can be the cure to a broken relationship.

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If you were reading my site at this time last year then you are aware of a situation I had with turning in one of my co-workers for committing horrible crimes against children.

After I wrote about the situation people came out of the woodwork asking me for information on him and basically trying to get me to tell what I knew. After the first few I decided I didn't wish to discuss it any further and had begun advising anyone who wrote and asked me about to seek their information elsewhere.

Yesterday I received an anonymous email (anonymous because it's a yahoo address and a fake name) from someone asking me for information.

Date: Thu, 22 Aug 2002 04:51:04 -0700 (PDT)
From: "Shaggie dawg" | This is Spam | Add to Address Book
Subject: Chriz R
To: monique@hideouskinky.net

Hiya... i wood like too talk with yu about a guy yu wrote bout on yer site awhile back ago...... please email meee.......

thanx

shaggy

I responded back saying that I did not wish to discuss Chris and asked the person to please stop emailing me and leaving comments on my site regarding that situation. I received the following in response:

Date: Fri, 23 Aug 2002 12:42:18 -0700 (PDT)
From: "Shaggie dawg" | This is Spam | Add to Address Book
Subject: Re: Chriz R
To: monique@hideouskinky.net

hello....well.... i will seek info elsewhere... however.... that waz rude of yu telling mee knott too email yu back.....my naime iz shaggie....and i werk fer cisco systems... im a netwerk admin....i have experience in Novell....java scripting....unix... and etc..... sew please test mee..... i kan maike yer life very hard..... yu kan chk out one of my sitez i belong to a crew..... phrozencrew.com and progenic.com....sew.. pleeeeze.... don't bea rude......

Shaggie

monique@hideouskinky.net wrote:

I have no desire to discuss Chris with anyone. Seek your information
elsewhere.

Please stop emailing me and do not post about Chris to my site again.
Thank you.

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i love the attention but a girl is tired
I am presently working off of three and a half hours of sleep. I was up until about eleven chatting with Lynne and Anitra. When I finally decided to take my tired ass to bed, I got a phone call that kept me up until 2:30 this morning. Needless to say, I am sleepy as hell. I had a huge mug of coffee this morning and it’s attempting to work me but I don’t think even Starbucks Espresso Roast (more beans, less water cause I like it to be strong) will take away this tired feeling I have.

file this under what the fuck?
I wanted to talk about Michael Jackson and his latest invention but another fan who feels about Mike the way I do has said it so much better than I ever could have. I am going to refer you to dashes.com and let you read it for yourself.

This lady of soul mess
So there is a lot of hubbub going on about the whole Ashanti/Soul Train Lady of Soul/Entertainer of the Year Award. Apparently Soul Train feels that Ashanti deserves the Aretha Franklin award but there some 20,000 people who disagree. Soul Train disagreed with them disagreeing and the whole thing turned into a schoolyard fight with Soul Train coming out looking like jackasses. My thoughts are presented to you in the following list of questions, which I will dedicate to Anil because during our hilarious chat last night he helped me come up with a bunch of them.

1. Hey Don Cornelius, why you got your little cousin answering the angry emails being all ghetto and rude to people and shit?

2. Don’t you think it’s hypocritical to discredit the petitioner’s opinion because he is white when you had Leeza Gibbons as a host on last year’s show?

3. What the fuck is up with the text alignment on SoulTrain.com? Did the bootleg copy of FrontPage have a bug in it or something?

4. Furthermore, do the words spell check, grammar check or professional proofreader mean anything to you?

5. If you are going to be on television and make black people look bad while supposedly trying to praise them and their culture, don’t you have a contractual obligation to be on BET?

6. And just why did you call BET out like it’s their fault?

7. Soul Train has neither soul nor trains. Please Explain.

8. To Shemar Moore – You left Y & R for this shit?

9. If non-black people speaking out against Soul Train is a bad thing (because apparently they can’t know anything about soul music), why do you have non-black people parading around the stage trying to shake what their mama didn’t give them?

10. Speaking of BET, am I the only one who thinks BET uses Cita as their way of talking shit about people without really having to own up to it?

11. You say that everyone is missing the point and that talent or lack thereof really have no bearing on who gets this award, it’s more about who has had a stellar year in the music business that determines this award. How then did Ashanti qualify when she didn’t even bust on the scene until the early part of this year?

12. I still contend that anyone winning an award with Aretha Franklin’s name on it should have at least some amount of identifiable talent. Am I alone in thinking Ashanti (i.e. that live remote on the Doug banks show where she apparently couldn’t remember the words to her song either) can’t sing and (judging from the happy video) can’t dance either?

13. Furthermore, aren’t widows peaks like so 1998/Lisa Raye?

14. Who decided Ashanti was the princess of Hip Hop and R & B?

15. Am I the only one who would vote to pass a law that would require Ja Rule and Ashanti to give their voices a rest for the next 12 months if it showed up on the ballot in November?

16. Should I lay off Ashanti and Soul Train for now? Or is it ok if I do two more?

17. How sad is it that when Soul Train couldn’t come up with a better response they resorted to not only the race card, but throwing the horror of slavery up in the mix too?

18. How ironically funny is it that while lambasting other members of the race for black on black mudslinging they themselves were slinging the most mud?

19. Should Ashanti Be Entertainer of the Year?

20. Does anyone really care that much?

i'm sleepy
I went to bed at a decent hour last night but I still feel incredibly sleepy. Yesterday before I went to work I had two huge cups of coffee. I didn’t feel sleepy at all after that. Too bad I didn’t set up the coffee maker last night. I could definitely use the coffee now. Unfortunately I have to leave in about 25 minutes and I am not even dressed yet. No time for homemade coffee I guess. Perhaps a trip to Starbucks?

but at least i'm trying to eat better
I am one of those people that spends a ton of money eating out every week. Breakfast, lunch and dinner is always bought from some place or other. In an effort to curb that bad spending habit, I went to the grocery store last night and bought food to eat for dinner and breakfast. Now my only bought meal will be lunch during the day. We usually order lunch each day anyway, and Applebees has the bomb Grilled Chicken Ceasar Salad. I am hooked on those things. Mango Nectar is good.

i still have that video game addiction
I haven’t played GTA 3 in *gasp* two days. Let the healing and recovery begin. For the first few days I was playing that game so much I was having dreams about it. Coming up with strategies to beat the missions in my sleep. Thanks to Anitra and Steph I’ve made it to the second island where the missions are a little tougher but just as exciting. Lately though I’ve been playing sniper. I’ll sit on the roof of some building with the sniper rifle and just pick people off as they are walking down the streets of Liberty City. When the police come chasing after me I snipe them too. When the helicopter comes I shoot it down with my rocket launcher. I’m trying hard to get the FBI after me (you need 5 wanted stars) so I can steal their car. I heard it’s worth a lot of money in the game. So far no luck. The one time I did succeed in getting 5 stars, I accidentally drove myself off a bridge and into the ocean because the brakes in the car I was driving didn’t respond fast enough. Damn, I love that game.

and i still get the funniest search requests
I am getting all these search requests for “Roger” and “Roger Talkbox”. Welcome all you Roger fans.

guys who love prince rule my world
The other night a friend hooked me up with 13 MP3’s of Prince playing all acoustic. I may be tempted to share a few of these because they are just awesome and you have to hear it. I’m too lazy to upload now. Remind me again later because you know how easily I’ll forget I said it.

i guess i should say something
I disagree with people who think reparations are bad for race relations and should not be discussed. I think open dialogue is important or we will never improve any kind of relations in this country. I think that’s all I’m going to say about that because someone (possibly even someone I love) is going to piss me off undoubtedly. I’ve seen the comments and discussions on other people’s sites. I’ve seen some downright ignorance too. Open your eyes people.

all right, i'm out
I guess that’s it from me for the time being. I need to go put clothes on.

1. Slow computers that don't have enough memory and should have been replaced months ago.

2. Procrastination which causes problems with said computer.

3. People who call and invite you to their house to smoke out and when you get there you find out they expected you to supply all the smoke.

4. People who claim to have the hook up on smoke and when you get there you end up waiting for hours because they really didn't have the hook up, they know someone who knows someone who knows the weedman and everyone is waiting.

5. People whose smoking habit is worse than yours and they admit it, seem like they can't go two hours without it and don't even have their own hook up so when they run out, they are stressing you out to find them some more weed even though you've already told them they need to find their own hook up.

6. The fact that you can't find any good weed in this town anyway!

I am so salty right now. I was in the middle of typing this long entry about slavery reparations and people's opinions on it and then this dumb ass computer froze up and everything was lost! God. My fingers were flying across the keyboard too. I am so annoyed right now. Of course it would happen right before it's time for me to leave for work too, so I don't have time to start again. I will attempt to formulate those thoughts again throughout the day but right now all I can see is red. Ugh!

ok so my hosting provider was running a special this weekend. I could upgrade to the next highest plan from mine for only $5 more a month. I now have 900MB to play with. This is doing nothing to restrain the domain whore in me.

Nothing at all.

1. i'm watching mtv right now and i just wanna know, why does Trick Daddy love the kids?

2. Am I the only person that thinks Amazon Gold Box rewards are full of shit?

3. Where did they find that negro on the Joe Boxer commercial and can I have his address so I can beat his ass?

six in the mornin' police at my door,
fresh adidas sneakers across the bathroom floor,
through the back window i make my escape,
didn't even have time to grab my old school tape
Ice T - Six In The Morning

I was reading George this morning and he links to this article on PNS about hip hop and hip hop beats returning to their roots. The article sites in particular The Clipse' "Grindin" (a Neptunes produced song) which has the same thump and crack style beat as Run DMC's earlier joints (think Sucker MC's, Hard Times, It's Like That). I love the song Grindin' just because of the beat. While I was in Los Angeles there was a commercial being played constantly that featured Reverand Run rapping over the Grindin' beat. I swear, I thought I had been transferred back to 1983 when I first heard Sucker MCs in my uncle's bedroom.

Back in April 1999 I was sitting at "the spot" with the homies when the news came over the radio that Roger Troutman had been shot dead by his brother Larry. We were in shock. I grew up on Roger music. Too many dances in the school gym bouncing to "Heartbreaker", "Doo Wa Ditty", "Grapevine" and "I Can Make You Dance". Too many slow grinds to "Computer Love" and "I Wanna Be Your Man". He made huge contributions to West Coast hip hop music. I didn't realize until I read this article that their music was played mainly on the west coast. I remember when Zapp and Roger dominated the radio. We'd be outside playing hopscotch in front of my grandmother's house in South L.A. and cars would be driving up and down the street banging those bass intensive songs that made you want to get up and start moving around.

And of course, we cannot forget the anthem for the westside, "California Love". When that song came out I was so happy to see him making music again because it was what I grew up on, that talkbox voice singing falsetto over booming tracks. If not for Roger and Zapp there would probably be no Shirley Murcock hits either since she started out singing in their group. This article took me back. I feel all sentimental. I guess I'll be hunting down Roger and Zapp albums now.

attack of IG Monique
For reasons beyond my control, I have recently purchased a brand new PS2 from Best Buy. When you buy the system, it’s very bare-bones. The game console, one dual-shock analog controller and the cords you need to plug into your television. What a rip off man! When I bought Super Nintendo it came with a cartridge that had Super Mario Bros and Duck Hunt on it, two controllers AND the gun to use for playing duck hunt. Years later, when Sega Genesis came out I bought one of those too. It came with Sonic the Hedgehog and that game rocked my socks. It still came with two controllers and it was all good in the hood.

Sony knows what they are doing. The gaming system itself cost me $214.49 with tax. I also bought my own copy of GTAIII which set me back another $53.61 with tax. I got home and realized I had forgotten to buy a new memory card so I went back today and bought the memory card plus NBA Street since it was on sale for $19.99. All told, I’ve spent over $300 just on PlayStation stuff this week. Judging from my trip around the PS2 game aisle in Best Buy and the fact that GTA - Vice City is coming out next month, I know I will be spending a helluva lot more in the near future. Damn you Sony!

So speaking of Best Buy. . .
That place is like a smorgasbord for my credit card. I was seriously walking around in circles for an hour talking myself out of buying stuff. I saw a new digital camera I want, a flat screen monitor for the computer, a new desktop computer, a new cordless phone for the house, a new refrigerator to replace the ailing one (my ice maker is possessed now), the Sex and the City Third Season DVD, Oz on DVD, a collection of Miles Davis cds all on sale for 9.99 each, a digital camcorder and a whole lot more.

The one irritating thing? All the people in blue shirts coming up and asking me if I needed help every three minutes. Yes I’m finding everything ok. No, I don't need you to show me where anything is. Stop following me around. It's bordering on stalking. Sheesh.

and then there's Amazon
At least I haven’t been clothes shopping. And I did buy stuff for some other people this week. Check mailboxes folks. Wishlists on Amazon are your friend. So are those share the love specials Amazon gives you when you purchase something. Jason sent me some and now two new cds are on their way to me. Amazon makes it way to easy to give your credit card a hurting while still wearing your pajama shirt and a satin bonnet on your head.

I'm going to stop. I swear.

What have you frivolously spent your money on this week?

Because we have an interesting discussion each time. Last week it was racial prejudice. This week, Lynne, Jason, EJ and I had a discussion about the top ten begging songs of all time. With some suggestions from them and some private thoughts of my own, here is my list:

The Top 10 Begging Songs of All Time

10. New Kids On The Block - Please Don't Go Girl
9. New Edition - Is this the end?
8. Bobby Brown - Girlfriend
7. Prince - The Beautiful Ones
6. Any song by Keith Sweat, even the fast ones
5. Marvin Gaye - Sexual Healing
4. Cameo - Why Have I Lost You?
3. Dreamboy - Don't Go
2. Marvin Gaye - Let's Get It On
1. James Brown - Please, Please, Please

What songs would go on your list of the top ten begging songs of all time?

My cousin Tomika sent me this joke through email. Hi Tomika! Happy Belated Birthday!

A man is driving down a road. A woman is driving down the same road
from the opposite direction.

As they pass each other, the woman leans out the window and yells "PIG!!"
The man immediately leans out his window and yells, "Bitch!"

They each continue on their way, and as the man rounds the next curve,
he crashes into a huge pig in the middle of the road.

MORAL OF THE STORY: If only men would listen

Funny how I think Jason and I talked about this game way back in March right? Now suddenly Metafilter is hip. Bahahahaha. Sometimes I feel like you white people read the sites of the intelligent black folks, steal our links and use them like six months later just to look smart. I've noticed so many things on metafilter that have previously been reported on by myself, Jason, George, Cecily and Oliver and I feel ganked in a way. Am I wrong? I mean, I know the web is big and everything but I also know white folks don't just go searching for stuff like this on the net.

Anyway, go look at Jason's new design. Inspiration for the pickaninny in all of us.

IFC is going to be running a special starting tomorrow night (Wednesday) featuring blaxploitation films of the 70s. It will start off with a documentary on Wednesday night and continue through the week with a different film being shown each night. Yeah baby! I'm all over this. Tune in people!

I'm home sick today. Today soap operas and motrin will be my best friend. Oh and a lot of webpages if I can stand to sit up for very long.

So skimming over Jason's page, I was reminded of something I meant to do a few days ago but never got around to it.

There is a certain white woman in Texas who would have us all believe that there is no inherent racism, except in the minds of people like Jesse Jackson and Al Sharpton who are using this "ruse" to further their careers. Bitch, please. I'm going to make your new vocabulary phrase for today institutionalized racism. Study it. Understand it. Know it. Because it exists in every milky white glass ceiling professional blacks have encountered in white corporate America. It exists in every college that has an affirmative action admissions committee because they know their shit is raggedy and they don't have enough minority students admitted. It exists in situations that allow us to keep giving Robert Downey Jr a slap on the wrist no matter how many times he puts that glass dick to his mouth but punish Big Baby Jesus for doing the same sorts of things.

I was going to go on a long rant but you know what? Um forget it. I'm not going to let my head explode. You won't see my page turning all pink with hello kitties and shit.

Moving right along ...

When the weekend ends I am totally not feeling Monday morning. I've usually spent all Sunday night watching all the good shows on HBO and so I probably didn't go to bed before 11pm. I wake up in the morning hugging the sheets, not wanting to leave my bed.

I get up anyway. I get in the shower. I comb my hair and brush my teeth. I pick the cutest outfit possible and I leave for work. I stop at Starbucks on the way in and pick something up to fuel my fire for the day.

I spend all day watching the clock, waiting for quitting time. I get home and I just want to relax because I need a weekend to recover from my weekend.

How are you doing this morning?

There are some people that you just can't say shit to. No matter what you say they take it the wrong way and get upset. Some people are always on the defensive. If you bring up something they are doing or have done that bothers you, instead of acknowledging what you are saying as a valid feeling, they immediately respond with, "Well, you always do bla bla bla." I hate that.

I wish for once I could just come to you and say, "You know, I really don't like it when you do this." I wish you would just for once acknowledge what I am feeling without having to point fingers about some lesser act that I've done that annoys you too. If in fact I am doing things that annoy you, speak up on it. Don't wait until it build up to the boiling point. I sure don't wait for that. I wish for once I could tell you something and have you recognize what I am saying instead of brushing me off with a "well, whatever" because it's not what you want to hear.

In my life right now, you are my biggest frustration. It's times like these when I wonder why I bother anyway. Maybe you would be better off all alone (as you pretty much are anyway) because then maybe you would understand what it is about you that has driven everyone else in your life away. If you don't want to die alone and lonely -

CUT THAT SHIT OUT!

I watched Monster’s Ball last night. I’m glad I did. It was worth the $4 to purchase it on Pay Per View.

I don’t care what any of you say, Halle Berry gave an outstanding performance and she deserved to get an Oscar. Now I fully understand why she and Denzel got the Oscar nods. Everyone wants to keep the two of them packaged up into a neat little box, but they both stepped into roles that they would not normally play and that is what caught the attention of many.

Halle’s character was tortured, confused and lost. I don’t know how the sex scene was in the theater but they showed the director’s cut on pay per view and god dayum! I was like oh my god. I called my mom into the room when it started and we were both looking at each other like “what the fuck?”

I thought Billy Bob did a good job as well. I spent a lot of the movie wondering what Anjelina Jolie saw in him, but whatever. There’s someone for everyone as my granny always says. Heath Ledger’s last scene in the movie was a shocker. I have loved him ever since he was in “The Patriot” with Mel Gibson.

All the characters in this movie were damaged in some way including Peter Boyle as Hank’s father. My favorite line of his in the entire movie - “Your mama wasn’t shit.” The line I liked the least was “I used to love a little nigger juice too.”

Mos Def in a small supporting role was good too. He’s becoming quite the actor. Even Puffy was good in it.

I would recommend this movie to anyone interested in watching it.

has anyone besides me and anitra noticed that when you try to go to elisabeth's site you get redirected to ebay? her domain hasn't been hijacked has it?

Because some people are not that net savvy (idiots) my job disabled our ability to log onto Hotmail, Yahoo mail and BlackPlanet so that people would stop downloading viruses onto the network. When it happened I didn't care too much because I can log directly onto my mail server and read my mail. I guess that should read I could log directly on to the server because apparently they found out my little secret and blocked me. Ugh. That sucks. So now I have to wait until I get home to check my mail. I'm such a net geek I don't know how I can take it.

So sorry George and Anitra. I guess I won't be able to write you guys from work afterall.

I stopped at Starbucks on my way to work this morning and bought my regular Quad 8 pump nonfat vanilla latte. I just sat down at my desk at work. I took a sip of it and I actually moaned cause the coffee tasted so good. I bet people are like what the hell is wrong with her?

In other news I forgot my work ID badge at home. It has the key to my desk attached to it so i can't get into my desk to get at any of my stuff. Ugh. I can't even lock the Coach bag up so I'm going to be paranoid all day long.

This is how things are going to be for a little while as I implement the changes to the site. At least you can see the last few entries I wrote.

EDIT - in the style of Huny and whomever else may be doing it, I am responding in the comments directly under the comment I am responding to. My responses are in italics.

Did that make sense?

i made a decision and i'm going to stick with it. may not sound like a big deal to you but it is a huge deal to me.

motivation. sometimes we lack it. i'm trying to find mine again.

i love my sister though.

later.

I've taken the archives down and changed things around a little bit because I'm installing some changes. Do not be alarmed! :o) Things will be back to normal soon.

I got home and found a package on my doorstep. UPS had left an Amazon box. EJ and Prime bought me The Complete Sex and the City Second Season DVD Set off my wishlist. I am one happy woman. Thanks you guys. You're the best!

This weekend went by really fast. Part of it is having to get up so early on Saturday to get my hair done, but the majority of it was spent kicking it with the homies and having a good time. We started watching New Jack City last night. It’s been a long time since I actually sat and watched that movie and we were sitting there cracking up at some of the scenarios that were portrayed. Like when they took over the Carter Apartments and walked the manager outside, butt-ass naked in front of everyone who lived there. We were crying with laughter. I couldn’t stay for the ending because they put the movie on at ten and at eleven I could already feel my eyes getting heavy so I brought it on home.

I went to Borders yesterday. I spent sixty bucks and I didn’t buy one book. This was an all music trip. I was tempted to buy “Good in Bed” as I was leaving the store but decided against it and bought my cds instead. Good music all around. I bought Koop on a recommendation from Jason. Everyone must have this cd. It’s excellent. Jason was right about “Summer Sun“. It makes me feel like I should be in one of those old Audrey Hepburn movies filmed in Europe. When this song plays there will be a montage of pictures showing me all over the country of Spain just living it up in the summer sun. I think this song will be my new anthem this summer. I feel like I should be reciting spoken word when I hear “Soul for Sahib”. “Baby” has that Westside Story appeal to it. I can’t get enough of this album. I feel like I felt when I got Verve/Remixed.

Speaking of which, I picked up Verve/Unmixed to accompany the cd that Lynne bought me. The unmixed versions of these songs take me to another place and time when you could actually feel the message behind the music. I have a new appreciation for Billy Holliday’s “Strange Fruit”. I’ve found a new interest in Nina Simone, so if anyone can suggest any good albums by her, I’d be much obliged.

I bought Blackalicious’ “Blazing Arrow” and Raphael Saadiq’s “Instant Vintage” but I haven’t been able to give either of them a full listen. I’ll review them later.

I’m presently reading “Valley of the Dolls” by Jacqueline Susann. I saw this movie about her starring Nathan Lane and Bette Midler (I love Bette!) so I had to read the book to find out what it was all about. There was a scandal back in the day. I haven’t made it past the first chapter but I’ll keep trudging along.

Chick Hearn is dead. This makes me very sad. Laker Basketball will never be the same.

I actually sat and wrote something this morning. Some fiction writing even. Well, semi autobiographical fiction. Whatever. It’s going to be good. For now I’m keeping it to myself while I polish it up but eventually I will share with the general public. Stay tuned.

This weekend isn’t much to yap about. I took the world’s longest nap yesterday. I was pooped. I obviously needed the rest. Doing too much makes a girl tired. I’ve been hanging out a lot lately and staying up late at night and I know it’s not good for me. When I go to work I’m bone tired and I have to be there for 10 hours a stretch so needless to say I’m worn out.

On Friday I hung out with the homies and got in a chronic cipher. I was plastered to their couch for like two hours I swear. The only thing I could do was play GTAIII. I still love that game. I am such a good car jacker now. Anitra, I am up to the Triad Assassination Hit. I keep getting shot up! I also stole a car from a Diablo and got in their car race but they were after me for stealing their car so I kept getting shot up! I love that damn game!

Yesterday morning I got my hair done. I love the color. It looks good on me. Someone told me I look like Jill Scott. Heyyyyyyyy. The hair is kinky like I wanted it to be. I’m glad I was able to allow my hair to grow out enough to get done. The temptation lately has been to cut it but I’ve been holding out for about a month now (my shit was looking ridiculous too, just all out of control) and it paid off! So yeah, if anyone asks, I totally grew my afro out over the weekend.

I am boring because I don’t have a thing in mind to discuss today. Therefore I will direct you all to Jason’s page where he has two interesting posts that you should check out.

Come back later.

I might just be more interesting.