Sleep is so precious to me these days. I remember the days of me trying to stay up as late as possible, even if I did have to get up the next morning and go to work or school. I’m learning to listen to my body now, and when I feel sleepy I go to sleep.
Last night I was sitting here in front of the computer playing a game. I was trying to escape my writing practice and the game was holding my attention because it was allowing me to think and let the thoughts pass through my head the way they are supposed to, uninhibited. I kept looking at the clock and when I realized it was ten I decided it was time to go to bed so I could have a decent amount of rest.
I notice that when I go to bed on time, I tend to have more dreams. The dreams are also very vivid. Everything in them seems so real. A lot of times things will happen in the dreams and I will be aware of the fact that it is out of the norm (for instance my dead aunt, who was also my favorite aunt, will be there), but loving every minute of it will make me not fight it and instead embrace the oddities so that they last a little longer.
Sometimes I try to make myself take control in my dreams. These are on those occasions when I am aware that I actually am dreaming. This has prevented me from waking up screaming with nightmares as of late. When something bad is happening I will imagine whatever tool I need to escape and suddenly I will have it and everything will be ok. I once dreamed that my mother, grandmother and I were being marched to our deaths by a group of people who were dressed in those weird outfits like the house that Tom Cruise went to in “Eyes Wide Shut”. They were carrying swords and they were most definitely going to kill us. I remember thinking, “I need a gun”. I remember being aware of the fact that there was no gun in my hand. Then I made the gun shape with my fingers (like you did when you were a kid), started aiming at my foes and “firing” and suddenly I did have a gun and they were dropping like flies. That was the coolest.
I am starting to get into dreaming. I like to see what happens and how I handle the various situations I get into. It’s like watching my own adventure television show every single night of the week.
What do you dream about?
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