I feel like my head is trying to emerge out of the fog. The fog has been hovering for so long now. It’s a dense fog that lifts and returns on a whim. It was hard to shake. I feel like I am starting to push that front out of my life.
I have so much going on in my head. I feel like I want to try and do a million things at once. Changes are being made, my thought processes are changing and for once I feel like I am in control. I feel relief.
There was a force of negativity that was hovering, trying to bring rain into my day. I got rid of that negativity yesterday. It went smoothly and I don’t expect any residual fall out. Both parties involved are satisfied. The score was settled. I feel a sense of relief there too.
I could have gone off on someone yesterday. They were wrong, I was right and I was well within my right to go off. Instead, I told this person that the moment had passed and I didn’t want to dwell on it any longer. I also let them know that I didn’t care to deal with them any longer either. I could hear regret and rejection in their voice as they agreed with me. And I felt relieved then too.
The other situation was making me tired. Not just the work but the people, the management - small nuances of the everyday atmosphere that were taking their toll on my resolve to continue on there. I was beginning to feel resentment and I think it would have eventually shown in my work. Luckily I never got to that point. The universe intervened and I was given something else entirely. Something much better, more lucrative and with a company I can respect. Tomorrow is the first day and I don’t even feel anxious. Just - relieved.
Presently I have a mild headache. I am going to take an early afternoon nap. Hopefully that will provide me with some relief too.
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