I haven’t felt much like writing here lately. I could blame it on someone ruining my mood but that’s not totally the cause. It just doesn’t seem as fun anymore for some reason. Initially when i started I was all into the entertainment value of it and now....I don’t know what this space is.
I never went to that barbecue on Sunday. Had too much to do. Was busy yesterday too. I come home at night and my life is the same - dinner, talk on the phone, visit a friend for a while, play on the Internet. I need some variety; I need something to stimulate my mind. I feel like I’m stagnating.
Have you ever felt like that? Like everything going on in your life and around you is just so trivial, none of it even matters? I think I feel like that now. Maybe something’s wrong with me.
Or maybe I’m just suffering from the fact that my red-headed sister is in town and I have cramps. Meh. Feel sorry for me please.
I just got out of the shower. That has got to be the best feeling in the world, the way the air feels on my skin when I initially step out of the shower. I like to dry myself off just enough that there are no drops of water on me and then sit around in my underwear and air dry the rest of the way. As I type this I sit in front of the computer in my underwear. Pretty picture eh? I’m sure you wanted to know all of that.
I got the most beautiful email from a guy that reads this page. Thank you a million times again for writing to me. You don’t know how much that made my day when I read that. :o)
So I’m off to work today but not before I stop at my favorite coffee spot and indulge the baristas in conversation as they mix up my venti non-fat vanilla latte. 4 shots of course. Maybe I should try 6 shots. I wonder how that would make me feel. Totally wired I bet. 4 is the most shots I’ve taken in any Starbucks drink. Their coffee tends to be very strong anyway, I suppose it doesn’t need any help.
Damn, I haven’t watched the Real World in a while. Have you missed out on my weekly commentary? In the grand scheme of things even those little kids in that house don’t even seem as important anymore. I need a new focus.
Egostical people. Ugh.
I had someone tell me I was displaying “stalker like” behavior because I save emails and IM conversations of people I like. Fuck you. I thought everyone did that, especially girls when someone says something they like or consider amusing. Get over yourself already. I saved a conversation where someone gave me their phone number. I saved a conversation where someone had linked me to something I wanted to be able to go back and read again. I saved a conversation where my best friend told me she loved me. I saved a conversation where a pedophile confessed his crimes to me. I saved a conversation where a guy I like told me some songs I should download. Yep! I'm stalking you all!
I’m hungry. I have to get to work and I’m still sitting here in my underwear.
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