Hard to believe that today is Friday. This entire week has flashed before my eyes in a haze of anger, confusion and various other wavering emotions. I think the reality is still sinking in for me. A guy on a mailing list that I’m subscribed to is in the Navy, and his ship has been called into duty. Reading him talk about the preparations that are being made is chilling to say the least. The likelihood of our country going to war becomes increasingly greater with each passing day.
I’ve never been a supporter of violence to solve problems, yet I am overwhelmed with the desire to see someone pay for all the lives lost in the tragedy. These feelings scare me because in the end I know it won’t solve anything. Violence will only bring about more violence. When will the cycle end?
Emotions are riding high all over the place. On Wednesday afternoon my supervisor and I got into a shouting match in front of the entire administrative office. We haven’t spoken a word to each other in two days. Sad that in spite of all that’s going on nationally and globally we can still find the time to hold grudges.
I’m grateful that today is Friday. I want this horrible week to be over with. I want to take this weekend and do something that will make me feel better. I want to catch up on the sleep that has eluded me for the past few nights. I want to talk to my sister and cousins and friends and everyone else and find some semblance of normalcy in what has been a crazy series of event.
I want to feel like the old me again.
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