i'm here

And I’m still here. Last week was like hell for everyone. The best thing we can try to do to soothe our confused feelings is try to get back into gear with our normal lives.

I went to bed at 10 last night, something I haven’t done in quite some time. I needed the rest though; I feel like I haven’t slept in days. I feel as if I took a break from life for a few days. It has helped to bring new focus to me though and I’ve been spending a lot of time reassessing my values and the things that matter to me.

I had been considering closing down this site. I just didn’t feel like I had it in me anymore to continue. Now I don’t know whether I will or not, I guess I will just take it one day at a time.

That’s basically the moral of life right? Take it one day at a time because you never know. In the blink of an eye your entire existence can be changed so dramatically. Those of us still here were not even in the World Trade Center but our lives have been upturned in a way we never would have imagined. Our entire existence in this country has been totally disrupted.

I’ve been telling myself that I don’t want to focus on the tragedy anymore. I just want to get on with life and putting things back together. I want to focus on living and the living, cherishing every moment that I get to spend with my loved ones and enjoying the things that I have to be grateful for. Shouldn’t we all?

I haven’t written since Friday. Not even in my pen and paper journal which is odd for me. I want to get back into the habit of writing.

So I’m here for the time being. I need something to take my mind off it all.

Cyn, I miss you too.

And to everyone that has been emailing me, messaging me and leaving comments Thank you from the bottom of my heart. It means a lot.

Juan, give me your picture. If you are going to go on that cruise anyway, I want to post your picture so we all know what you look like just in case. :o)