energy

There was nothing exciting going on in this hideous kinky world yesterday. I went to work and dealt with silly people who had poor listening skills on the phone. I had a chance to chat with both Huny and George. Both were very fulfilling conversations. Energy....

All of life is energy. There is both positive energy and negative energy. The kind of energy you choose to exert will factor greatly in the kind of energy you get back. My mom and others have always told me this. My brother is a strong believer in negative and positive energy. Until yesterday I was only a partial subscriber to the philosophy. Sure I’d say that I wanted positive energy, but then my words and my actions would depict otherwise - negativity.

I have bundles and bundles of energy inside of me. For too long now I’ve been investing my energy in the wrong things; I have allowed myself to be led astray. At some point in this great cosmos I lost sight of me and what I want. What others wanted for themselves and what others wanted for me became more important. Who I really am and who people perceive me to be became very confused. In the aftermath I became lost. I don’t want to be lost anymore.

In the past two weeks a lot of negative energy has surrounded all of us. The terrorist attacks have had us all on edge. I’ve noticed that with emotions riding so high it has been very easy to get into arguments with others over things that we would ordinarily consider to be very silly. Our need for a resolution has caused us to see conflict in everything. The Internet world has not gone without its share of conflicts in these past few weeks.

I’m not going to bother rehashing things that are best left buried but suffice it to say that negative energy took over for a while and a lot of people ended up with bruised feelings behind it. Diary Anon, Metafilter, Metatalk, the5k.org, Sugamami.com and various other sites have been touched with the negative energy. Including this one here, hideous kinky. It doesn’t matter what was said, who started it, who got the last word, how it ended - none of that matters. In the end only one thing remains true.

The Internet is for the people. It’s about expression and having a medium in which to express yourself. We are not all the same so it’s only natural that we are going to have different views, different opinions and different tastes. A casual surf around the net will show you the varying tastes and attitudes that abound. We all have our personal preferences for the kinds of sites that we like to visit. In spite of all that has happened, this is still a free country and you have the right to choose what you want to read or look at and what you don’t. It’s what makes the Internet so great, there’s so much variety you don’t have to be pigeonholed into any one thing.

And even in this great medium that has given voice to so many who probably would not have been heard otherwise there are those that feel the need to try and make separations and categorize people. The “a-list”, “cliques” and whatever else, it’s all rather silly when you think about it. Isn’t there enough division and separation in the world without us carrying it over into something that has the potential to pull us all together as one? The need for one person or a group of persons to feel more important than others is what causes this in the first place. Why do we have to put others down in order to feel better about ourselves? Negative energy...

I had a point....somewhere....I’ve rambled. I guess all I am trying to say is that there’s already enough negativity going on in the world right now without any of us adding to it. And we’ve all added to it in some way shape or form. I’ve decided that I don’t want to feed that negative energy any longer. I’d rather concentrate my efforts on being positive and giving out positive energy. It feels much better anyway, wouldn’t you agree?